“If the clouds are full of rain, they empty themselves on the earth, and if a tree falls to the south or to the north, in the place where the tree falls, there it will lie. He who observes the wind will not sow, and he who regards the clouds will not reap.” Ecclesiastes 11:3,4 Are you guided by wisdom throughout your day? Has your life been marked by wisdom? Throughout life there are circumstances that cause uncertainty and doubt. Will you find guidance in wisdom? ”Light is sweet, and it is pleasant for the eyes to see the sun. So if a person lives many years, let him rejoice in them all; but let him remember that the days of darkness will be many. All that comes is vanity.” Ecclesiastes 11:7,8 Rejoice and know that wisdom governs all the days of your life. You will find joy in the lighthearted days and guidance in the days of darkness. Continue Reading…
Fear God and keep His commandments: Ecclesiastes 11 and 12
Dawning of God’s deliverance shatters darkness: Psalm 130
When we are weighted down by the worries of life and all around us are idols that seek to cause our heart, mind, soul, and strength to fail and run away away from God what are we to do? Are we to run towards the first thing we see that would ease our anxiety or offers us a distraction? Will this thing we choose to run to bring help? When we turn to sin for comfort we will only find deeper despair and a soul filled with an ever increasing emptyness. What ultimately can we do? What should we do? We need to fight every inpluse that compels us to run away from God and wait for Him. Continue Reading…
Many questions before for an almighty God: Job 9 and 10
Have you reached the precipice of despair to gaze upon your life in the blackness of your pain? What is being relayed as we read through Job 9 and 10? Does Job feel helpless and hopeless? We have a man that is feeling deep and total weariness after the loss of his children and livelihood. What does Job believe about God? He believes that God is almighty and that no man can stand before Him. Job knows that he is right and blameless before God but what can be done in the face of an almighty God? Continue Reading…
God’s sovereignty displayed in the refinement of life: 1 Samuel 9 and 10
What would you do if you were walking down the street and someone came up to you and said that you were now the president? Would you take them seriously? I would think the person was crazy. In 1 Samuel 9 and 10 we are introduced to a Benjamite named Saul who is from the smallest tribe of Israel, and his family was the least of all the families of the tribe of Benjamin. Saul will be transformed from a man of no renown to a man lifted up and blessed by God to lead the Israelites as their king. Continue Reading…
Faithfulness in the midst of uncertainty: Ruth Summary
God has always been working and He will continue to be at work in the joyful moments of life, through the death of loved ones, and when you face a moments of uncertainty. The tale of Ruth happens during the turbulent time when judges ruled over Israel for two hundred years. In the midst of all the disobedience and unfaithfulness that was seen in Judges we have the story of Naomi and Ruth, a mother and a dauther-in-law, who lost everything they had in a foreign land only to find peace, hope, and redemption upon returning to Bethlehem. Continue Reading…
Rubber meets road – belief when the world seems to crash around you
Today will be an interesting day. I have an unexpected doctor appointment today. My world may be in upheaval later today. I was at the gym today and I had a great workout. In fact I had a great week of working out at the gym. Well today I took time to inspect my feet which I do frequently because of all the surgeries that I have had. Well today I found a callous on my heel which after looking at closer had been hiding an abscess. Continue Reading…
Certain uncertainty returns as life passes by
So here is my problem. I have been increasing my activity recently and really feeling good about my workouts and time hanging out with friends. That is not the problem. I am afraid that I might be at the start of another setback. I have not sensation of touch in my feet yet sometimes I feel pain, that can be a fake pain from my nerve problem or a major problem that has happened. I can never tell those pains apart. I feel some pain in my foot that has been lingering for a few days. Continue Reading…
Early morning update on music, healing, and uncertainty
I am wide awake at 2-ish in the am and I am relaxing to some random Billboard top 100 hits from the 80s-today on my iPod. Listening to music is a great way to clear my thoughts. So on that note here is how my foot is doing…….
I saw the doctor yesterday and I found out what will be happening over the next few months. First off let me say that the Bee Gees are some interesting listening at 2:30 am….. So the doctor gave me two options / scenarios which are as follows. 1) My foot may heal as is with out any extra surgery. This is unlikely by human standards since I have already given the foot 6 months to heal. BUT I know that God is able to do it and I am waiting on Him. 2) I will have surgery and the doctor will put screws and/or a rod into the ankle to help stabilize it. Continue Reading…
Sleep is no escape from lost hope and uncertainty
I fell asleep last night after the stress of finding out my surgery failed. Sleep was a haven for me last night. As I fell deep asleep there were no fears, doubts, worries, or anguish in my mind. I was adrift in the peace of my mind… It was kind of pleasant…
Then I woke up and the peace was obliterated by the in rush of reality. I was still here with a totally messed up foot and a lot of uncertainty.
So that is the situation I find myself in today.
One really bad night tonight akin to a hellish wilderness in winter
Tonight I am at an all time low. Back in February I had an operation where my left ankle and foot were fused together. It had a 70 % chance of working and it failed. Tonight I went to ice my ankle which was hurting. I realized that my foot was moving and it should never move. So what is next, I don’t know. I am weary and tired of all of my health problems. I know deep down that everything that happens in my life is for a reason and it is for the glory of God. Why would God choose me as his tool? I am not sure. All I can say is that God is in control. I am in despair right now yet hopeful that I know that this is all God ordained.
