It is interesting to look at how people look at Valentines Day. You have the couples who celebrate their love for each other. The single men and women who are troubled because they do not have someone to celebrate with. Then you have everyone else who tries to make the the day work for everyone whether it is looking at the true meaning of the day or just celebrating it with friends by sharing card and words of encouragement. I admire and love Valentines day but it is not because it is a holiday of love but because of the love I experienced on the 14th of February three years ago. Continue Reading…
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A perspective on valentines day
In the deep lost of my soul I have a God-shaped hole
It is amazing to see how much this latest surgery has actually hurt me. My body is healing and doing great. Yet my soul and hope has shattered by the relentless pounding and it hurts. I have been turning to everything but God for comfort. I am angry at God in some respects. So with that mindset you can understand how this last week has been long. I have made some really stupid choices to try to fulfill that aching hole in my life. As Audio Adrenaline put it I have a God-Shaped hole in my life. Continue Reading…
Ecstatically fantabulous night with Titus
I have to say that tonight was the best night I have had in a coffee shop ever! You might wonder who I was with, what I was drinking, and if she was single. Fortunately or unfortunately this evening didn’t involve anyone of the female persuasion. I was alone drinking mocha’s while jamming to music on my ipod at Caribou Coffee. The most exciting part of my 5 1/2 hours at the coffee shop was spent studying my Bible! I am so excited about all that God has shown me. Continue Reading…
Hopes desire grounded at Calvary
What is in a life? Why was my life chosen? How could it be worth dying? How could desire compel someone so much? Did it really happen to me? Does love fall upon me? How do I not deserve death? Could I give up everything? Can this lusting flesh prevail? How can I repay? A gift? A death? A Savior?
Life will hope again because of what Christ has done on the cross. No sin that you commit will ever be too great for Christ to cover fully. God loves you so much that he gave His son to die on that cross.
Thank you for loving me Lord!
Doubtful… Programing… Instinct… Faith…
Well I thought I should finally let you know how I am doing. I have been walking finally! I have to use crutches to get around but I am so happy to be able to get around easier. I know that things are going to stay solid in my fused foot. I know that God is able to take care of all the needs that I have in life. Yet even though I know that God is providing for me I am still tired and weary at heart. I have been ill for so long it is hard to see that I can live free from all of this pain and illness. I live in fear of the set backs that have plagued me. It is easy to sit in fear of the unknown future. The only way that I can overcome this doubt is knowing that I can’t overcome this doubt. I am a human and my built-in instinct is to doubt what God can do. If life were just this depressing outlook I think I would get off the train. Continue Reading…
God is the litmus test for fear, hope and love
I sit here at night and I remember a girl I once loved. What triggers a memory? It is easy to get wrapped up into wishing, hoping, and dreaming of what may have happened. I know it was never meant work out but I still ache for that special love of a girl. Why is it that when you love someone deeply that you are forever marked by their memory.
Smalltown Poets wrote a song called “Hold It Up to the Light”. The song expresses the inherent fear in all of us…… What do I do? This one question applies to love, work, church, play, family, pizza, marbles, clothing, furry bunnies, anything. Every moment in our life we make decisions small and large. Instead of fearing about what to do we need to hold it up to the light. God is the ultimate litmus test in our life. He knows what is best for us. That is what I have learned about my desire for love. God said no and I have to trust that decision. God has someone for me and one day I will see that His will was best. Continue Reading…
Death best becomes me at times
It is amazing how you can view the frail life that we have. I have just had another major surgery and I am sick of being sick. You never know how much good health is true life than when your health sucks. I am at wits ends with the current problems. But I find that this is the point where my faith in God is true and strong. I know my faith has wavered in recent days but as I recover from my hospitalization God is healing my weary heart. It is in the moments of total helpless fear that you see who you are. Are you a complete fake and you have no substance or are you a genuine person who has bad days but you love God and want to do his will. Continue Reading…
