So, today I went to the doctor to find out what will be happening to my foot. First let me say that I went to the doctor with my mind prepared that I would be looking at a major surgery and months of recovery. I know God is in control and I rest and trust in Him.
The doctor last saw me 6 weeks ago and at that point my foot was moving a good amount. Today they preformed a stress test on my foot. A stress test requires the doctor to use a lot of force to move my foot and measure how far it moves. It is not a “happy” thing to go through. So, I grit my teeth and the doc moved my foot around. I thought that it moved a lot and I was preparing to schedule the surgery in my mind. I am so sick of being sick….. yet I know that God is in control. Continue Reading…
The sovereignty of God expressed in a mortal man
One really bad night tonight akin to a hellish wilderness in winter
Tonight I am at an all time low. Back in February I had an operation where my left ankle and foot were fused together. It had a 70 % chance of working and it failed. Tonight I went to ice my ankle which was hurting. I realized that my foot was moving and it should never move. So what is next, I don’t know. I am weary and tired of all of my health problems. I know deep down that everything that happens in my life is for a reason and it is for the glory of God. Why would God choose me as his tool? I am not sure. All I can say is that God is in control. I am in despair right now yet hopeful that I know that this is all God ordained.
A fusion of the body
Well, life is interesting. I am recovering from my surgery. It is hard to have to keep off my feet. I have had my left foot and ankle fused together. Time will tell if things work out. My God is all that is keeping me together, many of the doctors and nurses wonder how I keep such a positive attitude. I know it is all due to God. Well life goes on. And to God be the Glory. Oh yeah… there is my foot!
Death best becomes me at times
It is amazing how you can view the frail life that we have. I have just had another major surgery and I am sick of being sick. You never know how much good health is true life than when your health sucks. I am at wits ends with the current problems. But I find that this is the point where my faith in God is true and strong. I know my faith has wavered in recent days but as I recover from my hospitalization God is healing my weary heart. It is in the moments of total helpless fear that you see who you are. Are you a complete fake and you have no substance or are you a genuine person who has bad days but you love God and want to do his will. Continue Reading…
