Well the deep fear and dread of knowing that I have to have surgery again have passed For now at least. I know that God is working this for His glory and I am thankful that he is allowing me on this journey of a lifetime. Please keep me in your prayers (as I know you have) while I try to continue on with my healthy eating. It is hard because I am not able to get the food myself any more. I m eager to see what God has in store for me during the next few months.
P.S. The Royal Guardsmen are awesome!
Tag Archive - Fear
Clawing my way back as I fall again
Doubtful… Programing… Instinct… Faith…
Well I thought I should finally let you know how I am doing. I have been walking finally! I have to use crutches to get around but I am so happy to be able to get around easier. I know that things are going to stay solid in my fused foot. I know that God is able to take care of all the needs that I have in life. Yet even though I know that God is providing for me I am still tired and weary at heart. I have been ill for so long it is hard to see that I can live free from all of this pain and illness. I live in fear of the set backs that have plagued me. It is easy to sit in fear of the unknown future. The only way that I can overcome this doubt is knowing that I can’t overcome this doubt. I am a human and my built-in instinct is to doubt what God can do. If life were just this depressing outlook I think I would get off the train. Continue Reading…
God is the litmus test for fear, hope and love
I sit here at night and I remember a girl I once loved. What triggers a memory? It is easy to get wrapped up into wishing, hoping, and dreaming of what may have happened. I know it was never meant work out but I still ache for that special love of a girl. Why is it that when you love someone deeply that you are forever marked by their memory.
Smalltown Poets wrote a song called “Hold It Up to the Light”. The song expresses the inherent fear in all of us…… What do I do? This one question applies to love, work, church, play, family, pizza, marbles, clothing, furry bunnies, anything. Every moment in our life we make decisions small and large. Instead of fearing about what to do we need to hold it up to the light. God is the ultimate litmus test in our life. He knows what is best for us. That is what I have learned about my desire for love. God said no and I have to trust that decision. God has someone for me and one day I will see that His will was best. Continue Reading…
Faith in the moments we wait with uncertainty on God
What is faith? It is the confident assurance that what we hope for is going to happen. It is the evidence of things we cannot yet see. I believe that God has given us faith so that we can see the unseen. In life there are so many times when we are faced with decisions. I am faced with a decision right now. There is a path that I can see clearly with my eyes and then there is the path which I can only see by faith. Everything within me tells me to take the easy way but my faith is stronger than that desire. It is the time to wait on the Lord.
