Tag Archive - Depression

Perseverance in hardship when desire wains: 1 Chronicles 25 and 26

July 26, 2010 in Bible Blog with 0 Comments

I am feeling bogged down by all the genealogies of 1 Chronicles lately and feeling a weariness that extends to my very core because life has been very difficult recently. What do we do when we feel the weight of life pressing in all around us? It will alwaysbe easiest to shutdown and fall into depression, lethargy, and apathy when life is difficult and painful. What do we do to difficult moments? Where do we turn to for help, hope, and healing?

Today I am reading through 1 Chronicles 25 and 26 which is centering around the division of tasks within the City of David. It is encouraging to see how such intent was taken to ensure that the worship of God was continually happening. Continue Reading…

Transparency in the down times of life.

September 22, 2009 in Life with 0 Comments

48_166I’m in a mood right now where I am bitter, angry, and a little depressed about life. I kind of wish for death right now in a non-suicidal way. It would be so much nicer to be in heaven than here on earth. I can’t say where this weariness comes from but all I know it is here right now. I know that God is still in control and that He will meet my needs but right now I am struggling . I feel like I am stuck and in a room with no doors or windows. What am I doing in life? Where am I going? I have absolutely no idea. It is driving me crazy. I would just give up but that is against my nature. What is really weird is that earlier today I was feeling normal and happy. Life will seem normal in the morning but for now I am waiting for a good night sleep so I can forget life.

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Depression induced apathy in the midst of life’s trials

June 4, 2007 in Life with 0 Comments

039_202Have you ever found yourself hiding in life. Many people have probably been wondering where I have been and why I have not been online much. To put is simply I have been very down and sad you may even call it depressed. I have been spending a lot of time reading and playing video games as of late to help me through this hard time. I have no desire to seek God right now. All I feel I can do is exist and that at times seems like something that is beyond my reach. Enough on the generals… You may wonder why I am so down right now, let me share with you.

I hate waiting to heal. I just HATE it! I am so sick of this I am angry with God a little I guess. Continue Reading…

Soo… Yeah, life still sucks… Yet, I am fine? (A rant to God)

August 14, 2006 in Life with 2 Comments

sandfootprintsI am a ragamuffin in this world. I have no hope in myself. I think about all the dreams and hopes that I used to have for my life, and I think I will never know them. I feel like I am caught in a cycle of illness and despair with no way out except when God wills it. I am scared.

The Bible says that God is doing everything for my good. I believe that to be true. It is another thing to know it in your heart. Over the last 4 years of continued set backs I have come to know that God is doing something, but how is this for my good. What future can be found in the midst of this. I know that this world is not my home but I pray that God will grant me peace, rest, and joy in this life. My heart aches right now. Continue Reading…