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In life will you seek forgiveness and humility: 2 Samuel 3 and 4

How often do you feel yourself becoming filled with anger, fear, pride, hate, or discontent? What is the motivation behind your actions when you are like this? Do you label your feelings as righteous to justify your actions? Can we label any action by man as righteous? During the time of conflict between Israel and Judah in 2 Samuel 3 and 4 men make accusations, decisions, and assumptions that illustrate the need for true forgiveness and humility.

Abner is accused by Ish-bosheth, the son of Saul and king of Israel, of sleeping with a concubine of Saul’s in 2 Samuel 3. Did Abner truly sleep with the concubine? Was Ish-bosheth afraid of losing his authority as king making him not trust Abner? Was it so easy for Ish-bosheth to forget that it was Abner who established him as king over Israel after Saul’s death? Why did Abner seek to establish Ish-bosheth as king? What motivated thes men? Why do people so quickly turn upon the ones who truly care for them when their personal security feels threatened? After these accusations were made Abner chooses to no longer support the lineage of Saul as king and he seeks out David to make a covenant to serve him and help establish his rule as king. What motivated Abner to make peace with David? Was it spite of Ish-bosheth or a desire for renown that prompted Abner t? Continue Reading…

Samson born in weakness, blessed with strength: Judges 13 and 14

“Now the sons of Israel again did evil in the sight of the Lord, so that the Lord gave them into the hands of the Philistines forty years.” Judges 13:1  The Israelites have again strayed from the statutes of God and brought down a curse of oppression from God. The weight of mans inherit sinfulness stands out as I read through the book of Judges. We are unable to follow God without His intervention and deliverance. The implicit need for a perfect deliverer is woven among the verses of Judges filling my heart with joy as God raises up someone up to deliver the people of Israel only to feel the painful loss when the Israelites consistently turn away again. My own faith can be described by this sporadic cycle of joy and painful loss exhibited by the sons of Israel. Continue Reading…

Transparency in the down times of life.

48_166I’m in a mood right now where I am bitter, angry, and a little depressed about life. I kind of wish for death right now in a non-suicidal way. It would be so much nicer to be in heaven than here on earth. I can’t say where this weariness comes from but all I know it is here right now. I know that God is still in control and that He will meet my needs but right now I am struggling . I feel like I am stuck and in a room with no doors or windows. What am I doing in life? Where am I going? I have absolutely no idea. It is driving me crazy. I would just give up but that is against my nature. What is really weird is that earlier today I was feeling normal and happy. Life will seem normal in the morning but for now I am waiting for a good night sleep so I can forget life.

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