“And whatever you do in word or deed, do all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks through Him to God the Father.” Colossians 3:17
What a thought for life. I have been sulking over my life lately. I have been down, grumpy, and full of apathy. I have not really cared about anything. It is an impossible cycle for me to break. I can only leave this state of mind when God allows it. I was faced with a choice tonight. I could openly sin before God or I could read my Bible. I’ll be honest that sinning sounded like the best choice and the most enjoyable at the moment. Yet by the grace of God I choose to seek Him. I read through Colossians and was rewarded with Living water which my parched spirit needed.
It is interesting how EVERY SINGLE THING in life is of great importance to God. Continue Reading…
Do all things for the glory of God even in the down times of life
Depression induced apathy in the midst of life’s trials
Have you ever found yourself hiding in life. Many people have probably been wondering where I have been and why I have not been online much. To put is simply I have been very down and sad you may even call it depressed. I have been spending a lot of time reading and playing video games as of late to help me through this hard time. I have no desire to seek God right now. All I feel I can do is exist and that at times seems like something that is beyond my reach. Enough on the generals… You may wonder why I am so down right now, let me share with you.
I hate waiting to heal. I just HATE it! I am so sick of this I am angry with God a little I guess. Continue Reading…
Healing is depressing
I have been feeling down lately. I am sick of having to keep waiting to heal. I really can’t stand this any more. It has been over 5 years that I have been dealing with these foot surgeries. I have lost any and all motivation in life. I know that this will pass but it is not easy feeling this way. Add to that the fact that I still have side effects from stopping my pain med… So I am feeling really “wonderful” right now. Tomorrow is another day.
Only provision for this fallen world is Jesus Christ
Today I am brutally reminded that pain is a live in the world. All around me I see many people hurting. A good friend of mine that I worked at Apple with has had another stroke which was very seious. My heart aches for his family. My mom finds herself hurting after a long day of work. Sin has cursed this world. Where do we find the hope we need?
I know the only hope I have is that Christ died for me on the cross. Without that wonderful cross I would be swept away in in the current of pain and despair. I actually think that it is more painful to stand firm upon God’s provision. Continue Reading…
Music soothes the soul
So tonight as I sit here having a hard time sleeping I found the perfect music to listen to. I have always loved the movie Elizabethtown. Well I have just bought two soundtracks for the movie. I am totally happy now. I figure I’ll crash sometime soon. LOL I could use some prayers for my time with God. It has been lacking the passion that I desire.
I hate this – a life on the edge of change
Well I find life post pain patch a lot harder than I would have expected. I want to cry right now for absolutely no reason. And on top of that I find myself getting the chills all the time. It’s hard to stay positive right now. It amazes me how a medicine that has such a positive side can cause so much pain, despair, and doubt. I feel like I am stuck in a dark room with no light right now. I look forward to the morning because hope may renew.
Need prayer as I start a new phase of life
Well today is a big day for me. I am officially coming off of the pain patches that I have been on for quite a while. Please pray that my body doesn’t get too freaked out without the patch. I also am not sure what this will mean for my overall pain level. This will all be figured out over the rest of this week. So I am a little cranky to anyone. It is not intentional. Oh yeah pray for my mom and sister as they deal with me.
Still can’t believe it Hugh Grant can sing – Music and Lyrics
Ok…. I still can’t get over the fact the Hugh Grant sings rather well… I think I like this movie and soundtrack a little too much. Well good morning everyone. I get let out of my cage today. I’m rather psyched about that. I am going to the doctor and then Barnes and Nobel I think. Well another day begins.
