I have been feeling down lately. I am sick of having to keep waiting to heal. I really can’t stand this any more. It has been over 5 years that I have been dealing with these foot surgeries. I have lost any and all motivation in life. I know that this will pass but it is not easy feeling this way. Add to that the fact that I still have side effects from stopping my pain med… So I am feeling really “wonderful” right now. Tomorrow is another day.
Archive - May, 2007
Healing is depressing
Only provision for this fallen world is Jesus Christ
Today I am brutally reminded that pain is a live in the world. All around me I see many people hurting. A good friend of mine that I worked at Apple with has had another stroke which was very seious. My heart aches for his family. My mom finds herself hurting after a long day of work. Sin has cursed this world. Where do we find the hope we need?
I know the only hope I have is that Christ died for me on the cross. Without that wonderful cross I would be swept away in in the current of pain and despair. I actually think that it is more painful to stand firm upon God’s provision. Continue Reading…
Music soothes the soul
So tonight as I sit here having a hard time sleeping I found the perfect music to listen to. I have always loved the movie Elizabethtown. Well I have just bought two soundtracks for the movie. I am totally happy now. I figure I’ll crash sometime soon. LOL I could use some prayers for my time with God. It has been lacking the passion that I desire.
I hate this – a life on the edge of change
Well I find life post pain patch a lot harder than I would have expected. I want to cry right now for absolutely no reason. And on top of that I find myself getting the chills all the time. It’s hard to stay positive right now. It amazes me how a medicine that has such a positive side can cause so much pain, despair, and doubt. I feel like I am stuck in a dark room with no light right now. I look forward to the morning because hope may renew.
Joseph throughout his journey is never forgotten by God
As I sit here listening to an audio Bible I am amazed of the story of Joseph. I think of all the pain and despair that must have gone through Joseph’s mind as he was sold by his brothers. He was sent into prison and forgotten after serving faithfully Potiphar when he was accused by Potiphar’s Wife. He served in prison and helped the baker and cupbearer interpret their dreams. Continue Reading…
Need prayer as I start a new phase of life
Well today is a big day for me. I am officially coming off of the pain patches that I have been on for quite a while. Please pray that my body doesn’t get too freaked out without the patch. I also am not sure what this will mean for my overall pain level. This will all be figured out over the rest of this week. So I am a little cranky to anyone. It is not intentional. Oh yeah pray for my mom and sister as they deal with me.
