It going to be 3 years the end of June since my dad died. I wish he were here. You never recover. It is just a sad reality. It’s just hard to not have that friend in him that I crave right now. It hurts… I miss you dad.
Archive - April, 2007
Still can’t believe it Hugh Grant can sing – Music and Lyrics
Ok…. I still can’t get over the fact the Hugh Grant sings rather well… I think I like this movie and soundtrack a little too much. Well good morning everyone. I get let out of my cage today. I’m rather psyched about that. I am going to the doctor and then Barnes and Nobel I think. Well another day begins.
Faith, hope, doubt, and faith in the mist of God’s Sovereignty
Back on February 15th I started a blog on why? It is still a question that is in the forefront of my mind. At that time I was walking around and oblivious to the future surgery I faced only months away. How did God allow this to happen? Well, that is an easy question to answer. God is God and He can do what ever he wants. God can ordain and allow everything that comes to our door step. Think of Job,he had no idea why his world was falling apart. We are blessed with a special behind the scenes view of the whole story. Continue Reading…
I finally found out… (a quick yet pointless rant)
There was a point in my life that I lived without MySpace and relationships.com. I was content to know that these sites existed but I was never compelled to join. Now I am checking out both of these sites many times a day and constantly changing them. Recently someone who may remain anonymous (DOZ!!!!) invited me to join Facebook. I have now found the dilemma of life. Continue Reading…
Pain from a far as I pray for people at Virginia Tech
Why… I am crushed to hear of all the pain and death that happened today at Virginia Tech. In my life I have wondered why does this happen. Today is no different. Sin is alive in the world and God ordains or allows things to happen for His greater good. That is little consolation to the families and friends of this victims but all the same God is still there. May God sustain the people of Virginia Tech tonight as they cling to what hope they have. May they find hope and assurance in God.
The Ten Commandments movie makes me wonder sometimes
How is it that the people of Israel while in slavery in Egypt saw all the miracles of God and yet kept turning away. I just watched The Ten Commandments and it struck me as interesting how people who had tangible proof of God in their midst still strayed from Him. It is happening in my life every day. I keep straying from God and turning to desires of the flesh. Well it is a fact that sin nature has poisoned us but I think there is something much deeper happening. Continue Reading…
Life, Pain, and Hope from a relentless restlessness
My mind is relentlessly restless tonight. I am sitting here not able to move… or not as I want to. Is there any hope for the world today? Have we as a culture become too busy to think about life, pain, and hope? I look at my digital life and find that I spend a lot of time browsing, playing, listening, and e-mailing. That is not necessarily bad, but what am I forgetting?
The bar has been set in my mind. I work and toil to reach the bar but when it seem within my grasp I trip and fall back. I measure my life from failure to failure. When did I enroll in this rat race? Is there a need to put on a good show as a christian? Is there a bar to be reached?
Christ came to the lost and found department of this world to claim as His own my lost, discarded, forgotten, and broken life. What a thought that is. Continue Reading…
In the deep lost of my soul I have a God-shaped hole
It is amazing to see how much this latest surgery has actually hurt me. My body is healing and doing great. Yet my soul and hope has shattered by the relentless pounding and it hurts. I have been turning to everything but God for comfort. I am angry at God in some respects. So with that mindset you can understand how this last week has been long. I have made some really stupid choices to try to fulfill that aching hole in my life. As Audio Adrenaline put it I have a God-Shaped hole in my life. Continue Reading…
A Prayer For My Life – Brighten My Heart
Sixpence None The Richer – Brighten My Heart Lyrics
My heart is as dark as the soil sodden with winter rains. My soul is as heavy as the peat freshly dug from the bog. My thoughts swirl like willow branches caught in autumn winds. My body as tense as a cat’s as it stalks its prey. Help me open my heart to You, help me open my heart to You, help me open my heart to You, oh Jesus. It’s what I long to do. My heart is as dark as the soil sodden with winter rains, Lord, brighten my heart. My soul is as heavy as the peat freshly dug from the bog, Lord, lighten my soul. My thoughts swirl like willow branches caught in autumn winds, Lord, still my thoughts. My body as tense as a cat’s as it stalks its prey , Lord relax my body.
