Doubtful… Programing… Instinct… Faith…

Well I thought I should finally let you know how I am doing. I have been walking finally! I have to use crutches to get around but I am so happy to be able to get around easier. I know that things are going to stay solid in my fused foot. I know that God is able to take care of all the needs that I have in life. Yet even though I know that God is providing for me I am still tired and weary at heart. I have been ill for so long it is hard to see that I can live free from all of this pain and illness. I live in fear of the set backs that have plagued me. It is easy to sit in fear of the unknown future. The only way that I can overcome this doubt is knowing that I can’t overcome this doubt. I am a human and my built-in instinct is to doubt what God can do. If life were just this depressing outlook I think I would get off the train. Thankfully God has overcome this twisted world. The desire of my heart is to follow God and that desire will over-power all my doubt!

You may wonder why I have kept writing about this constant doubt that I am plagued with. I only write this so that I will be able to remind myself of God’s goodness to me. I figure that I can take you along for the ride. I know that you will be blessed by this just as I am.

May you have a happy and joyful thanksgiving! Have a great day.